Everybody might not want the truth but some say everybody needs it. From shoot outs in Southern streets to selling millions of records with The Geto Boys, a successful solo career and moves as an industry executive, this Hall of Famer has gems for the people. Check out the details and an excerpt as Hip Hop Legend Scarface Talks Suicide In His Upcoming Memoir “Diary of A Madman” hitting the streets April 21!
He may be good for classic laughs but he’s also good for honesty. Brad Jordan aka Hip Hop Legend Scarface Talks Suicide In His Upcoming Memoir Diary of A Madman: The Geto Boys, Life, Death, and The Roots of Southern Rap which is highly anticipated. Written by Benjamin Meadows-Ingram the book goes pretty deep into unchartered territory for the rapper, breaking down the method to his “madness” and the benefit of still being alive at 44 years old to look back on his life choices.
Hip Hop Legend Scarface Talks Suicide In His Upcoming Memoir and revealed the following in the Billboard preview:
Looking back, I think I just wanted the attention. I see that now. But back then, I felt like attention was the last thing I wanted. I wouldn’t have been able to tell you if it was any one specific thing that had pushed me to that point. I just know that I was mad. Mad and sad. I felt like no one wanted me. My daddy was dead, and my mama didn’t want me. I didn’t really get along with my stepdad, and my grandma already had nine kids of her own, so there wasn’t really a place for me at her house either. I felt like I couldn’t do shit right, and the only way I could get any attention was by f—ing up. No one would come watch me play football or check out my baseball games or any shit like that, but as soon as I popped some kid in the face or busted somebody’s head open in class, everyone was there, telling me I was f—ed up for what I’d done, trying to take away my privileges and shit like that. That was the attention I was getting: for being a f—up…
….See, it wasn’t like that was the first time I’d tried to kill myself. I’d been trying to take my own life for years. You name it, I’d tried it. Slitting my wrists with a box cutter and bleeding out all over the bathroom floor, putting loaded guns to my head, all of that shit. If you’d asked me then, I’d have told you straight up: I was ready to go. But I never did it. I never cut myself deep enough or far enough away from my family to be left alone to die. I never pulled the trigger. I never went all the way. That’s why I say that I think I really just wanted the attention. If you really want to go, dying is the easy part. It’s the living that’s hard. That shit takes a lifetime. And it will test you every step of the way.
…wow, that’s #RealTalk. It’s definitely eye opening to hear a Def Jam executive and well respected Hip Hop veteran—who’s worked with everyone from Tupac and UGK to Jay-Z and a laundry list of others detailing time spent in mental wards, true street dramas, fear, self-doubt—all this around performing for sold out crowds with Willie D, Bushwick Bill and DJ Reddy. Hip Hop Legend Scarface Talks Suicide In His Upcoming Memoir and his honesty not to mention his presence above all, is appreciated.
