Sabrina B.

Two days after the apparent suicide of Tennessee Titans wide receiver O.J. Murdock, no family or friends have been able to offer a reason as to why he might have taken his own life. reports that there is a suicide note, however…and send a few text messages before his death.

Police consider the investigation ongoing, so they won’t reveal what it says, but at least Murdock’s loved ones will get some kind of an explanation. It won’t be satisfactory, because nothing could be, but it’s something.

Murdock did make a few communications before his death. Via the Tampa Bay Times, he texted his receivers coach at Fort Hays State, Al McCray, at 3:30 a.m.

“It was like, ‘Coach, I appreciate everything you’ve done for me and my family.’ At the end of the text he said, ‘I apologize.’ I figured he’s apologizing because he texted me so early.”

A former high school coach also got a call. From

One of his former coaches at Memorial Middle Schoolreach, Aesha Bailey, spoke to Murdock by phone just before his death. She was the first to find him Monday morning in his car.

On the phone, “He just kept saying ‘I’m sorry, coach. I’m sorry,'” said Bailey, a former star athlete in the county before joining the teaching ranks. “That’s all he said.”

Bill Ward, a local sportswriter who covered Murdock in high school, got a text, too, at 6:03 a.m.

“Hey Mr Ward, it’s OJ Murdock…. I just want to thank u for everything you’ve done for me and my family. Can’t thank you enough.”

Ward replied to Murdock at 9:57 a.m.:

“Hi O.J. Thanks for those kind words. Are you recovered from the Achilles and back in camp with the (Titans)?”

Murdock did not respond.

Whatever’s contained in Murdock’s suicide note may never become public, and that’s fine — we don’t need to know, and I doubt many of us would understand anyway. Clearly, this was a man with emotional problems, and it seems like he kept those problems closely guarded.