Comedian Robin Williams’ life came to a tragic end last August when he committed suicide. He left behind his children and his wife Susan. She recently appeared on Good Morning America where she opened up about her husband’s upsetting death for the first time on national TV.

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Susan said:

“I know we did everything we could. … People have in passing will come …They would say to me, ‘God, I wish I had done something more for him. If only I had called him.’ And I’m thinking, ‘No one could have done anything more for Robin.’ I just want everyone to know that. Nobody — no one — everyone did the very best they could. [The pain] … just all of it will never go. It’s the best love I ever dreamed of.”

Even the trailer for the interview is a tear jerker.