Talk about not being able to ‘live it down.’ After almost 20-years since the “inappropriate relationship” between Monica Lewinsky and Bill Clinton, she opens up to Vanity Fair about what life has been like since the mid-nineties, including being name in Beyoncé’s recent single. Hit the jump for the deets.

JaaiR (JR)

Beyonce’s “Partition” has many feeling some type of way and that includes Monica Lewinsky. The grammatical bug hit her when she heard Bey croon, “He popped all my buttons, and he ripped my blouse/He Monica Lewinsky-ed all on my gown.”

Correction: “Thanks, Beyoncé,” said Lewinsky. “But if we’re verbing, I think you meant ‘Bill Clinton’d all on my gown,’ not ‘Monica Lewinsky’d.'”

With that being said, Lewinsky also let out a few other feelings on life after the White House.

Letting it all out:

Sure, my boss took advantage of me, but I will always remain firm on this point: it was a consensual relationship. Any ‘abuse’ came in the aftermath, when I was made a scapegoat in order to protect his powerful position. . . . The Clinton administration, the special prosecutor’s minions, the political operatives on both sides of the aisle, and the media were able to brand me. And that brand stuck, in part because it was imbued with power.

Finding the right position [no pun…]:

I turned down offers that would have earned me more than $10 million, because they didn’t feel like the right thing to do. I was never ‘quite right’ for the position. In some cases, I was right for all the wrong reasons, as in ‘Of course, your job would require you to attend our events.’ And, of course, these would be events at which press would be in attendance.

Why open up now:

Tyler Clementi, the 18-year-old Rutgers freshman who committed suicide after being secretly video-taped kissing another guy had a huge impact on Lewinsky.

…my own suffering took on a different meaning. Perhaps by sharing my story, I reasoned, I might be able to help others in their darkest moments of humiliation. The question became: How do I find and give a purpose to my past?

Clementi’s Internet humiliation triggered her past – one of the first Internet scandals during ’95 and ’96.

…get involved with efforts on behalf of victims of online humiliation and harassment and to start speaking on this topic in public forums.

It’s time to move on. People are out here releasing their own sex tapes for money these days – MIMI!